Reaching Beyond Myself
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I was only there to check to see if I had an ear infection or if it was just allergies. Afterall, we weren't living in my beautiful home of Florida, rather a dreary, hot/humid/dry Midwest. So far the gray days seemed to be less than Michigan, yet my energy level hasn't been like it was in Florida.
The doctor entered.
He examined my ear.
Yup an ear infection......ugh....ok I'll take my antibotics and be on my way.
Oh wait, there's more?
What else could there be?
I only needed you to check my ear, you did, it's fine, let's go.
What do you mean, my lab work is borderline?
No diabetes doesn't run in my family.......the only family member I know of who has had diabetes was my maternal grandpa and he wasn't diagnosed until he was 90.
Oh, I didn't know the steriods I use to treat my migraines cause me to be at a higher risk for diabetes.
Why wasn't I told that?
Oh right, isn't that always the answer......it's the lesser of two evils.
Right, a stroke would be devastating, sure diabetes is more ****ahem***managable.
Of course, I understand that I DO NOT have diabetes, but even hearing that word makes my skin crawl.
You better believe I'll be hitting the gym, doing weight watchers, you name it!!!
The end to living in fear that I will die from a curable, treatable disease.
The end of living in constant fear that my health at 33 will be the end of the only mother my children will know.
Today I start to blog about the rest of my life in the years to come. My struggles with not wanting to exercise, or eat right, yet my willingness to reach beyond the comfortable to live another day with my children on this earth.
Today starts the beginning of my new life!
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